A George Washington University professor agreed to “cancel” herself after admitting that she is white even though she claimed to be black for many years.
“For the better part of my adult life, every move I’ve made, every relationship I’ve formed, has been rooted in the napalm toxic soil of lies,” 38-year-old professor Jessica Krug wrote in a Medium post titled “The Truth, and the Anti-black Violence of My Lies.”
“To an escalating degree over my adult life, I have eschewed my lived experience as a white Jewish child in suburban Kansas City under various assumed identities within a blackness that I had no right to claim: first North African blackness, then US rooted blackness, then Caribbean rooted Bronx blackness,” she wrote. “I have built my life on a violent anti-black lie, and I have lied in every breath I have taken.”
However, Krug argued that she has not been living a double life because she never lived another life outside of her “false narrative.”
“There is no parallel form of my adulthood connected to white people or a white community or an alternative white identity. I have lived this lie, fully, completely, with no exit plan or strategy,” she wrote in the article. “I have no identity outside of this. I have never developed one.”
She then claimed that her mental health issues were the reason she decided to claim to be a black woman.
“Mental health issues likely explain why I assumed a false identity initially, as a youth, and why I continued and developed it for so long,” she added.
“When I was a teenager fleeing trauma, I could just run away to a new place and become a new person,” she continued. “But this isn’t trauma that anyone imposed on me, this is harm that I have enacted onto so many others. There is nowhere to run. I have ended the life I had no right to live in the first place.”
“I am a coward,” she said. “You should absolutely cancel me, and I absolutely cancel myself.”